I’ve started getting up at 4 in the morning to do my procrastinated homework instead of staying up late. It makes classes WAY more awake, but makes me way more tired the rest of the day after class. BUT, I always get it done because of this pattern. Bless figuring out your best time to work.
Theoretically, I should’ve worked for a half hour or so each night for the last week, instead of watching comedy shows on Netflix (this has become my new past time, because I’ve been paying for Netflix for months and haven’t used it so now, I use it.) if I had worked in that pattern, I would’ve sat down almost finished with my work last night around 8 or 9, and instead of watching comedy shows and being on my phone, I would’ve been excited about finishing the speech outline I have to write and gotten it done.
But alas! That’s now what I did.
They say college students have the second worst sleeping patterns of any single group of people, behind only long haul truckers. Go us! We rock.
Do you ever wonder about the long term repercussions of things like sleeping patterns and diet and things like that? I feel like I’ve been distinctly aware of those things recently but only while doing things like this. And I don’t actually change my actions at all, I just think about how I should. Then I go on with my day (or go to sleep).
My first class got cancelled by the instructor, but it’s only an hour long class, so it’s really just allowed me to procrastinate on my phone more before sitting down to do my work. It’s 5, and I have three hours instead of two now before I need to get dressed and leave for class, unless morning classes get cancelled (oh man I hope that happens). My advisor who is also my first class’ instructor told us in the class cancel email that if they cancel it, it’ll happen early in the morning and happen in increments because they want to cancel as little as possible. I’m guessing my 9am psych class will get cancelled but I can’t be certain and therefore I have to prepare just in case. And if it gets cancelled, I haven’t decided if I’m going to get homework done or sleep…
I’m probably going to sleep, and do this whole waking up thing again on Wednesday morning!
I’ve been gone for a while from here everyone, but now I’m here to tell you what you already know; it’s snowing! I’m up on council crest and it’s absolutely beautiful. I strolled and it was cold but also very nice.
My life is on a massive upswing and this week has been INCREDIBLE. Life ROCKS. Mostly at least. Yesterday kinda sucked but I went to rehearsal for a few hours and I cannot wait for this show to happen in March. It’s rekindling my incredulous awe of theatre and what it can do, and even better, I can feel myself generating ideas and morphing things into possible pieces of this play which it’s not my job to do that but it feels good to be creative. Like… so good.
Yesterday during rehearsal I used reflection of gels on a shadow screen to make a breathing womb surrounding a misshapen human which is Richard the Third, who is super evil by nature and it felt so good to be a part of making that happen. Indescribably good. I love creating things.
The drive up to Bellingham was actually incredible! Both the drive there and back were beautiful, and Bellingham itself was beautiful (it lived up to the hype that others gave it.) Driving also calms me down and reorients me in a very wonderful way, so it was therapeutic to just drive for 4 1/2 hours. I needed that.
Seeing Brynne and meeting her friends at WWU was also awesome! We went to a house show and traversed the city and got some SUPER good food. I wore one of her shirts and I got so many compliments on it, so that was a major ego boost as well because that shirt was cute but I wasn’t sure what people would say. It was positive though 😎
All of the great fun that happened this weekend made me think about how I’m not at a 4 year. I’m a little sad about it because it was so incredible and being able to just be a couple doors down from your homies all the time seems great as long as like you don’t have people stepping up in your personal space too much. But like, my tolerance for that stuff is high because I love people and people give me my energy, so I suppose that wouldn’t be a problem. Basically though, I sort of wish I was at a 4 year cuz that’d be awesome. But also, I love what I’m doing here cuz I’m kickin butt and takin names. And it’s fun and I love the people of Portland (usually) and I’ve found my groove doing this whole college and work and stuff all together.
I think the solution is, travel more to see my friends at universities so that I can get two birds with one stone. Because I want to go all over the country and explore it and then do the same with the world, and I suppose traveling to my friends around the country is a great way to start that!
And now, I’m on the max! But actually on the max as I type this time, not about to get on like with the bus.
I totally rocked my psych exam today, and I got through the stretch of the week that is actually difficult and now I’m relaxing and doing things I love all the way through Sunday! I’ve been needing this for a while now, recharge time is highly underrated. And after catching up in school the last week (mostly during the 8pm-8am range I’m sad to say), I can go home, play FIFA, sleep a lot, play guitar, and enjoy the fact that I have a terrific life.
I found myself being filled with this super powerful joy today that hasn’t happened in long enough that I noticed its absence. There have been moments of course, I live for moments throughout every day, but there hasn’t been a complete day like today has been in ages, one that is just filled with joy. And now, I’m going home to have dinner with my family and just hang out!
I forget sometimes to appreciate my life, but I’ve been real freakin lucky in a lot of ways, with the people around me and the opportunities I’ve received. I’ve worked hard and tried to be my best person but there’s always a little luck involved and I’m thankful for that. I’m ready to rock the world with my awesomeness and take on anyone who tries and stops me!
Woohoo for Bellingham, guitar, Olive Garden and fifa! And of course… the true homies, both family and not.
I’m not actually on a bus! I’m waiting for the bus. By the time I finish writing this though, I will definitely be on a bus. Like, without a doubt. Unless I finish this in the next minute which won’t happen because I don’t roll that way.
I always sit in the back corner on the bus when I get the chance because that’s who I am as a person (thank you Quinland for that phrase I use that so often now) but there are people in those two spots so I have to settle for an average bus seat.
Once again I have no idea what I’m going to write about going into this but I just will improvise, something which I did not do today very well with my speech in COMM 111. That public speaking class is kicking my ass, my knees get shaky and my voice rattles and it’s wacky stuff. It’s ok, at least I got the other forms of communication down, like talking to people, and blogging now I guess. My grade might suffer but it’s the only one so that’s also alright.
Today I started thinking I could go to Western Washington up in Bellingham (Quinland will probably laugh at this for hidden reasons) but it’s hella expensive so probably I’ll stick with cheap PSU to finish school. I can travel and teach after I’m done with all that, so I’m not too worried because I have time and there is a lot I want to do so I’m just doing the things I want to do here right now!
Update on my life, I’m double majoring in education and theatre and minoring in special ed. If you can’t pick one, do them all! That’s my motto now, and I couldn’t be more excited because now I know what I’m gonna do and I know I can slay at it too and I know I’ll love doing it. But honestly I’d place bets on that changing over the next year or two so… we’ll see.
I MISS SINGING SO MUCH so another update on my life, I’m gonna work my butt off to get into green note and make that work because a cappella is just so awesome all of the time!
I need to do my financial aid for next school year. Instead I’m going to do my psych homework 😎 just substitute one thing for another! There is always more to do. Always.
Alright, I’m outta here. Probably gonna nap on the bus home because I got 2 hours of sleep last night and it was intermittent! I got a lot done though so it was hella worth it.
Here I am, having to be up in 6 hours for class and needing to read 80 pages and answer some questions on those pages, and yet I am not doing that. Instead I am blogging.
I know what I’m doing, I swear!
I’m really excited to blog because Quinland was excited and convinced me to do it and now here I am, but as the title suggests, I’m not sure yet what will be written here. Is it supposed to be a record of everything? I suppose I could start there. After all, everything doesn’t really leave anything out.
Today was the super bowl. The eagles won, which of course is good because who doesn’t hate the patriots? Nobody reasonable, that’s who! Go Broncos!
The other day I learned that the fancy S that everyone draws in middle school with 6 lines that are in two rows of three and get connected to make an S has been around for literally generations, and everyone does it when they’re in middle school apparently. And everyone thinks it’s original, which is even better because then everyone is wrong and it’s hilarious when literally everyone is wrong about something.
Yesterday I made dinner for my friends and we hung out and talked then went to voodoo doughnuts then my friend David tried to kick flip for literally more than an hour. He got so close but today he actually got it and got it on video too so I’m super proud of him. BUT ANYWHO, I was thinking about how David, who I’ve known now for almost 8 years, and my’s friendship has evolved and it’s crazy to think how that happened. We used to sit inside and play video games, then for a while we played this weird soccer juggling game called Uber soccer that we made up. We’ve also been camping many times, and now here we are, he has his own place now and we’re both in college and we have dinner parties, make each other food and go out on the town. We’re like… growing up, and you can see it in our progression of time spent together and how we spend it. I think that’s so incredible. Time is a beautiful thing.
I have texts to respond to and procrastination to actively practice, so I guess that’s all for now on my first blog post. We’ll see if this happens again tomorrow or if it’s more weekly than daily… who knows! I certainly don’t.